Every day hundreds of information flows from facebook, twitter and instagram streams in front of me. I’m tired of sliding my thumb, but I’m still not stopping. Am I afraid to miss something? Is there something I’m looking for? I do not know.
Child development and groups of mothers from different schools, permaculture, seeds and real food pages, scientific publications, news, funny stories, interesting information… Which food is good for what, what causes cancer, what I say to children, everything goes upside down, I can do it I can do it Oops or that I should try, what’s going on at the last minute, why doesn’t my phone fall?
I really liked being able to access information at any moment. The world is always at my fingertips. I was looking at every opportunity to the land of information that seemed to me like heaven, sometimes even during a few minute breaks. But then things got weird. Which one was I spending more time with? A tiny screen or a living? I don’t know.
I was new at first, my life was in the process of change, and I seemed to have sworn to follow every page of anyone who wrote and drew on all the topics I was interested in with the fear of the uncertainty of change. I quickly scrolled down the pages, searching, scanning, selecting and reading.
Then I was tired of the emotion changes and triggers created by the ridiculous things falling in front of me while I was selecting and sorting and I eliminated some pages and people. I’ve arranged to update my news source only from trusted sources. There was no one other than the pages I was interested in, and the people who followed me. But in time, I realized that even this was too much. I’m overwhelmed with habit trying to read every update…
Every day hundreds of information falls on me. Every time I put my hand on the phone, they attack me. My daughter was playing games, cooking, going on the subway… Come on, I passed them trying to rest? Even when I say to sit at home and rest, I get new information. (Why am I clinging to the phone to relax?) Even in the moments I take a short look, I can link to my eyes; Something that interests me, distracts my mind I can not do my work in time. Because I’m sitting and jumping from that knowledge to that information, and I don’t understand how time flows.
I can’t physically get tired while I have the phone. Because my mind is full. My mind is constantly questioning, everything I see is in storage. I am getting tired. This habit is not only because it takes too much time, it makes it hard for me to focus; for the answers to questions I did not ask. For filling in my mind a lot of information that I don’t need in real life, when I’m living, experiencing, and maybe never. For exposing me to a lot of things that I wasn’t ready for, causing me to waste time.
For putting many contradictory information in front of me at the same time, constantly making me suspicious and frustrating me with unnecessary judgment. What I read is because it can strongly affect my emotional state and I’m exposed to it at the most unexpected times, even often. Because he didn’t leave me time of laziness, never rested my mind during the day, and so he overloaded me beni I’m tired.
Actually, I’ve seen this movie in school. This; it was a familiar story from the years when I was asked to ask questions, the need for that information, my passions and my life, and all the information was presented to me without giving me the opportunity to look for answers with a real curiosity, and I tried to fit them all into my memory just in case I needed one.
I thought a lot with my wife the other day, but I could not find a place I used except for factorial high school exams. The school ran out and some of the tons of information I learned there went to the trash. Some of it hasn’t gone yet, but I wish it had gone, but the brain’s burden would have lightened a little bit! The virtual relationship that has not touched my life with knowledge has been on me for a while.
How is the learning ilen way that we are; taught un established, I want it to be presented to me, I am merciful to follow what is offered, I don’t want to miss it. I can’t hear myself, I can’t feel my need.
I’m having a rest now.
To the inside of the life.
To ask questions in moments of need and real curiosity while living… To slow down, to try, to be wrong…
And then to feed my life, to find answers that will multiply my questions.
I’m tired. I don’t want to keep my mind busy with answers to questions I haven’t asked for a while. He’s questioning my habit, looking for balance.
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